everybody wake up - it's time to get down

A final rest

2009-09-29T00:35:27Z

Me: Hey.
Her: Is this Mark?
Me: Yeah. It is.
Me: It's been so long. And I've had your number in my phone for so many years. I just wanted to say hi.
Her: I've already told you. I have no desire to have you in my life. Whether it's months or years, it doesn't matter. Stop trying.
Her: Just delete my number.
Me: Okay. I'm sorry. I thought I'd give it one last try. Take care then.

At least I FINALLY got the closure that I've been looking for for the past 4 years.

I'd make a middle finger design if I had the patience to

2009-09-16T22:10:15Z

YOU ARE NOT THE FUCKING ACTING PRESIDENT. YOU HAVE DONE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING IN HELPING TO REBUILD SOMETHING THAT YOU HELPED TO BRING DOWN. DON'T FUCKING TAKE THE TITLE AND POWER WITHOUT ASSUMING SOME SORT OF RESPONSIBILITY.

FUCK YOU!

These are the unspoken words of the things I wish I could say without ruining the peace of the group. :)

Just to let you all know...

2009-09-04T03:50:17Z

My best friend is better than your best friend. :-P

Another start of the school year

2009-08-26T14:35:59Z

Oh, hello LiveJournal! Long time, no see!! Either I've decided that this is getting old for me, or I finally managed to get a life.

Condsidering that I've decided to update again, I rule out both options. I've missed you terribly as I'm sure you've missed me too.

The biggest thing that I have to talk about right now is the fact that I'm back at college. No, not SLU, but rather NVCC. Basically because this is the only place that will take me with the grades that I have. But it wouldn't be fair not to mention that it's the only place I feel most comfortable at that feels like a second home. I'm finally getting my feet wet again and taking the initiative to finish up my schooling...for now. What the future holds for me, only time will tell. But right now, it looks as though I'll be getting my Associates Degree here and a Bachelor's Degree in (hopefully) Boston, MA. :)

As much as I love being back at school, I know that I have a lot of hard work ahead of me. Starting with reading my schedule correctly. Because I didn't look at it carefully, I ended up in the wrong class at the wrong time on the wrong day. Me = stupid. In the end, it turns out that I have another 3 and 1/2 hours to wait until my REAL class today begins. Hence why I've decided to sit down and update a little bit since I haven't in about 3 months.

Things otherwise are alright. A little stressed in the financial department of my life, but I have great people surrounding me that will help me through these tough times. My best friend has been nothing less than a good person who has been there for me for the past 8 months and I continually thank her for that. Without her, I really don't think I'd be sitting in a computer lab at school right now. She's really pushed me to my limits and beyond to get a degree and, without that motivation, I really don't know if I would've been able to do it on my own.

That's not to say that I haven't had other influences on my life. My parents, for another example, have supported me with whatever I think is best for me. Although it gets annoying since I still live in the same house as them, it really does pay off in the end. But, I have to admit, I'm glad that they're leaving for 3 weeks to go to Cape Cod. I'll be much more relaxed during that time.

I don't want to force things out right now, so this is where I leave you for the time being. Maybe later I'll be able to write more, so when the time comes, I'll find a computer and sit down to chat. :)

Emotional breakdowns

2009-06-07T22:43:46Z

The biggest difference between you and I is that you know how to deal.

%$#^#

2009-06-04T03:24:50Z

Wow. Offensive much??

I'm getting so sick and tired of this shit!

I love these kinds of things

2009-06-04T02:29:19Z

Hopefully I can detox and be okay

2009-06-02T14:26:57Z

I seriously think I may have overdosed on nicotine.

Curse you Nicoderm CQ!!!

This is me keeping my word

2009-06-01T15:57:57Z

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I just need to figure out when...

Welcome back..? Maybe..?

2009-05-28T19:38:46Z

I think I'm going to get back into writing here. I miss doing so.

Let's hope that's a promise I can uphold...

EDIT: Does anyone even read this anymore? If you do, please comment and let me know. Kthanks. :D

Here we go again

2009-05-28T01:55:38Z

I'm having one of those "feeling crazy" moments. Blahh!!

Done

2009-04-23T14:22:55Z

I'm so pathetic that even my ex-girlfriend doesn't want to hang out with me.

Fuck off.

This was a blow

2009-04-21T16:53:26Z

I don't know what to think anymore...

I suck at this these days

2009-04-06T15:12:30Z

Just tell your friends that you really don't have the time to anymore. They'll understand.

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My anti-keeping you informed about my life

Bored and updating for the hell of it

2009-02-10T20:35:26Z

I haven't had a real update in a long while. And because I'm bored and killing time, let's change that, shall we?

Things, for the most part, are good. I'm working a lot, but I have hardly any real time for myself anymore. Having to be at work at 4:30 almost every morning means I need to be in bed no later than 9 pm for a good, full night's sleep. However (and yes, this is a good however), I've been finding myself going out every night in spite of having to wake up so early the next day. Is it worth it? Oh yeah; it's worth it. :)

The lack of sleep doesn't seem to catch up with me as much as I would've thought it would. Unless, of course, I'm out until 1 AM and only get a nap in before a long shift. Which has happened a couple times in the past month and a half. But again, I stress that it's definitely worth it because I get to spend time with such an amazing friend that losing the needed sleep I should be getting doesn't even come into my mind for a split second.

All in all, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't mostly happy with my life right now. I have a steady job, good friends, and a loving family that'll support my decisions whatever they may be.

My hands are beginning to hurt from typing so much. Even though I don't consider this to be a terribly long entry, the lack of writing is certainly taking a toll on my arms.

A note to all: don't rape children

2009-02-03T22:35:29Z

This was actually quite funny to watch. :)
And the preview shot is hilarious! :D

Lame to the max

2009-02-03T18:05:54Z

I have nightmares about the coffee at work getting cold because people turn off the warmers they sit on.

I can't decide if it's a good thing that I don't have anything worse to fear, or pathetic that that's what keeps me up at night.

It still only comes once a year, right?

2009-02-02T20:38:11Z

Because of my crazy work and life schedule, I can't remember if today's Groundhog Day or not. Can someone who has a sense of the year fill me in on this, please? And whether or not we can expect 6 more weeks of winter weather?

Although I find that kind of amusing, really: I mean, spring doesn't start until the last half of March, right? So technically even if the groundhog didn't see his shadow, wouldn't we still have 6 more weeks of winter?

Fuck. My. Life.

2009-01-30T16:54:23Z

2 new front struts: $69.95 each.
2 new rear struts: $69.95 each.
2 new front sway bars links: $25.00 each.
2 new rear sway bars links: $25.00 each.
2 new rear sway bar bushels: $7.95 each.
Right outer tie rod end: $35.00.

9 hours of labor @ $90.00 an hour: $810.00

Estimated cost of repairs for my car: ~~Priceless~~ $1340.00.

This made me laugh. A lot.

2009-01-19T23:58:23Z

I guess not

2009-01-10T20:41:14Z

I'd be lying to say that I wasn't hurt or upset by this decision you made.

Here we go again

2009-01-05T16:02:10Z

All of my symptoms are coming back in full force and flaring up like no other again. It's so bad that I don't remember leaving work to come home.

And it's so bad that I don't know what makes sense anymore.

:(

Oh, hello

2009-01-04T20:50:30Z

I just re-read through a bunch of old entries and decided that I want to start writing in this again. Basically because I miss it. And because I have a LOT to write and update you all about.

Welcome back to LiveJournal, Markis. :)

Such is my life...in 100 questions

2008-10-02T22:55:25Z

1. What was the highlight of your week?
Getting through the week without going crazy.

2. Whose car were you in last?
Mine.

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
No clue.

4. What color shirt are you wearing?
My red "Five Guys" shirt.

5. How long is your hair?
Long enough that I should consider getting it cut.

6. Are you good looking?
Extremely.

7. Last movie you watched?
I can't seem to make it through one these days.

8. Who were you with?
I don't remember, if anyone.

9. Last thing you ate?
An apple.

10. Last thing you drank?
Strawberry Nesquick.

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
A couple of days ago.

12. Who came over last?
I think it was Lauren..a looonng time ago.

13. Are you happy right now?
I could be happier. Then again, I could be more miserable.

14. What did you say last?
-Burp-

15. Where is your phone?
In my front right pocket.

16. What color are your eyes?
Brownish green.

17. Are you left-handed?
No. But sometimes I wish I was. I heard you live longer..?

18. Spell your name without vowels:
Mrk.

19. Do you have any pets?
My dog and two cats. I used to have a gecko. RIP, Tag. :(

20. Favorite Vacation?
Cape Cod. Although I'm going to be going to California soon. :)

21. What do you dislike currently?
Having to wake up at 4:00 every morning for the past 7 and a half months to go to work.

22. What are you listening to?
I forgot to put on my music when I sat down at my computer.

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
A great, big hug.

24. What is your favorite scent?
My car has that "new car" scent from an air freshener. I like that a lot.

25. Who makes you happiest?
My friends and family.

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I was asleep at 7 PM and didn't wake up once all night.

27. When is your birthday?
April 2nd, 1985. Today's actually my half birthday.

28. Who has the same phone as you?
NicoleFace and my dad.

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
At Brandon and Sarah's party.

30. Do you read your horoscope?
Only when other people tell me to.

31. Where was the last place you bought something?
Big Y.

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
It's shaggy. Not too long, but not too short, either.

33. Do you bite your nails?
All the time.

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
Not at all.

35. Are you a forgiving person?
Too forgiving sometimes.

36. Myspace or facebook?
Facebook. By far.

37. How fast have you driven a car?
110 MPH. Which is probably why there wasn't any oil in it when it died.

38. Have you ever smoked?
Can we count how many times I've tried to quit?

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
Theater.

40. Do you have Verizon?
Absolutely.

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
Anyone who can make me laugh and I feel really comfortable with.

42. Do you have any hidden talents?
I can act. Which used to be a hidden talent, but has come a long way since I've discovered it.

43. Favorite Song?
Right now? "Fall For You" - Secondhand Serenade.

44. Do you like to sing at all?
No. I love to.

45. Dream Job?
Starring in a Broadway show.

46. Where does most of your family live?
In the same house that I do (that's right - I still live with my parents).

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
Middle child between 2 other brothers.

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
What an understatement.

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
Can I afford to go back to sleep for 5 more minutes? Mmmmm..yes, I can.

50. Do you drink?
Occasionally. Once I turned 21, the fun really stopped.

51. Know any other languages?
I took Spanish for 2 years in high school. Does that count?

52. Ever write a coded message?
Not since I was in middle school.

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
Not that I can remember.

54. Do you have any children?
I hope I don't. Otherwise I don't know about them.

55. Did you take a nap today?
I take a nap every day.

56. Who has the same birthday as you?
Stephanie Mackay.

57. Ever met anyone famous before?
Paul Newman and I had the same role in a play once. And I caught the eye of Rod Stewart once, too.

58. Do you want to be famous one day?
It's a life-long dream of mine.

59. Any Pet Peeves?
Money. It all has to face the same direction for me. I'm so anal about that.

60. Are you multitasking right now?
Not really.

61. Do you like Britney Spears?
As a person? Sure.

62. What is your least favorite chore?
Cleaning my room. Which is why it's currently messy.

63. Last place you drove your car?
To Big Y to get an apple and a Strawberry Nesquick.

64. Ever been out of the country?
I miss England. :(

65. Where were you born?
Danbury Hospital.

66. Could you handle being in the military?
I really don't think so. I envy those who can.

67. What is your average cell phone bill?
I honestly don't know to tell you the truth.

68. Who are you thinking about right now?
You.

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
At work today.

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
2. And a pair of flip-flops.

71. Are your toes always painted?
Not always.

72. How many piercings do you have?
My left ear cartilage.

73. What are you doing today?
You mean for the rest of the day? Watch "Scrubs," visit Vallerie, maybe call you, and go to bed.

74. Have you ever been gambling?
Thank God for Indian Reservation Casinos when you're 18!

75. When is the last time you updated your page?
Facebook? It's always changing with wall posts and what not. Myspace? Not since a few years ago.

76. Do you like rollercoasters?
The scarier, the better.

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
Disneyworld. I'm planning to go to Disneyland when I'm in California.

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
Chris Griffin. But that's only because I can impersonate his rendition of "Jitterbug" to a T.

79. Last thing you cooked?
Too much spaghetti. Which I later threw up. :)

80. How's the weather?
I love this kind of weather.

81. Do you e-mail?
Ehh. Not as much anymore thanks to AIM.

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Threw it against that wall.

83. Last time you were sick?
Today. Refer back to question 79.

84. What states have you lived in?
Connecticut. How sad.

85. Do you wish you could move?
Sometimes.

86. Last time you smiled?
Probably today.

87. What is your dream car?
A DeLorean. Made to look like the "Back to the Future" version, of course.

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
Oh yeah.

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
California. It's too long of a wait to be there.

90. Are you happy with your life?
For the most part.

91. What do you look for in a mate?
Someone who I could get along with, makes me smile and laugh, and likes to cuddle.

92. What is something you regret?
I tend to believe that everything in life happens for a reason.

93. Would you ever date an ex?
It all depends, really.

94. Favorite restaurant?
The Olive Garden.

95. Are you random?
I think the fact that I've answered every question in this stupid survey answers that one.

96. What's for dinner tonight?
Probably nothing. I'm not really that hungry.

97. What is the area code for your cell phone?
203.

98. What cities have you lived in?
Sandy Hook, CT. And that's it.

99. What is something special you want?
To be happy with my life again.

100. What is something about you that not alot of people know?
I've had heart surgery.

Well..that was a good waste of a half an hour. :)

Oh by the way..

2008-09-27T19:30:22Z

Did anyone else hear about this??? It's terribly sad.

I'm just fortunate to have gotten some recognition from him. He was a great man. :(